Oh Baby! BreastFeeding and more....

LO is 3 weeks old now and cuter than ever! The first week home was the roughest week of my life! Talk about baby blues!!!!!!!  That was something I definitely didn't expect to feel but man is it real.  My husband was so great, helped out soooo much.  By the second week I felt a little better and this week I am definitely  a new person.  I can't say I'm my "old self" because I am definitely a changed person for sure.  I also chose to exclusively BF which has been a major challenge.  Until your doing it you don't realize how hard it is.  It consumes all of your time.  My day is planned around LO's eating schedule LOL.  The first few days were so hard.  LO was trying to latch and getting frustrated, and I was trying to latch him and getting frustrated.  The middle of the night really wore me down.  LO would just cry and shake his head like he was telling me NO, and I was so stressed out all I could do was cry because I was tired and just wanted him to go to sleep.  I wish someone had told me how difficult BF'ing would be.  It's only been 3 weeks but now I feel like its a breeze.  We still have our moments and going out is definitely not as fun, but that's our life now.  Sometimes I think it would just be so easy to give up and use formula so I could share the night feedings with my husband and share the feedings with anyone in general!  But when my sweet son is nursing and looking up and into my eyes I melt and it all feels worth it.  It's a bond you can't explain.  BF'ing is definitely challenging but the bonding you get is so rewarding.  We are starting to get on a pretty decent night schedule, but the days are still pretty much made up as we go along.  I'll be returning to work on tuesday, only 4 days left!  I am sad and wish I had more time, but then I'm also a little glad to get back to some normalcy.  I am curious to see how hard its going to be to stay awake at work too........until next time.

He's Here!

So this is where it ALL begins, LOL.  I must say after 9 months of excitement and anticipation Labor is a VERY surreal experience.  After passing our due date we opted for an induction which went extremely well.  Once the contractions started I no longer had the burning curiosity that had been eating away at me for 9 months, to know what they felt like.  I did my best to go au naturel, but after 20 hours of intense pain I gave in and got an EPI.  There is a GOD! LOL.  36 hours after being admitted and just 7 minutes past the 24 hour mark since my water broke, I vaginally delivered (no episiotemy, YAY) a healthy 8lb 14oz baby boy.  I expected him to come out crying and screaming but he was surprisingly calm, just looking around at everbody with his little pirate eye (which he still does.  One eye wide open, one eye shut tight).  It looks as if I will have to share the roller coaster experience of our first 2 weeks home at a later date.  Little one is up from his nap and ready to nurse!